There are the bad days that happen when you do something stupid, and so you feel sick about it the entire day and it just wrecks everything.
There are the days when other people do things to you that keep pulling you and your mood down lower and lower.
Then there are the worst kind of days when things you have no control over ruin your day.
While we should be able to control our blood sugar levels, weight, and other things associated with diabetes, sometimes it's just hard. You're playing outside and you go low, but you don't want to test or eat. You snack while hanging out with friends and neglect your shot because you just want to enjoy the time. You don't feel pretty when standing next to your skinny friend who eats twice as much as you. All things that you should be able to control, but oftentimes you can't. And those things are often the things that ruin your day.
It's been a long time since I've heard someone genuinely call me beautiful. My "attractiveness hasn't diminished," or "of course I'm pretty," but it's all in jest, or out of duty. There are days I spend so much time getting ready and I feel pretty, but then no one notices. And why? My body fights itself; insulin puts on weight, going low makes me eat extra, my body stores fat because of the diabetes. And that makes me ugly. Somehow people can't see through the diabetes to me.
To all you girls with diabetes: You are beautiful no matter what your size. I know you hear that from tons of people, but take it from me: It's most important what's inside you, and as long as you're happy with that, you can be happy with anything.
To all you boys who know girls with diabetes: Don't go compliment her because you feel guilty now. Be honest, be truthful, and realize that her body makes it so she can't fit the world's idea of a "perfect woman." She's trying her best, giving her all, and all she wants is someone to honestly see her as beautiful, and to tell her so.
